In my first class today, we watched an old movie in Cantonese about the fourth wife of some rich man in ancient China. In my second class today, we were taking about abstract deterministic mathematical models I’m 80% sure I won’t ever need in the workplace (the teacher is awesome though!). And in my third class, we had a lecture on a database querying language whose content I learned via Google months ago on the job. Then I came home to my online Business Ethics class to read articles complaining about how much CEO’s get paid.
I was extremely close to taking a lifelong nap.
I have a tendency to quickly decide what is important and what is not via my own understanding. When I decide that something is important, I’ll move heaven and earth to do it. But when I decide it’s not important, I swing into the other extreme.
(I almost did not graduate high school because I maxed out all my “unexcused absences” my senior year. Why? I could sleep through all my classes and still graduate in the top 25 students in a class of 400. So I just slept at home. An example of what not to do.)
But one of the things God has been teaching me is share His priorities and to trust His timing and placing. He is sovereign so today is not an accident.
He values integrity and honesty so I wake up early, type up a 6-page rough draft paper about some addle brained philosopher, and show up to class to participate instead of emailing the teacher some bogus excuse about my unicorn eating my laptop or just not showing up.
He values hard work so I do not google my homework problems before I do them all. I do them first (which is painful at times) and then google them. Then I cry at how many I get wrong. And then repent of sleeping through class (just kidding!).
He honors humility and patience so I swallow my pride and ask for help when I cannot do something instead of evading and manipulating the situation, even in the smallest ways.
His work is excellent so I put in more effort even when I know that most people wouldn’t care if some of my SQL queries are lowercase and others are uppercase. Do I care? No. I killed that little OCD voice in the back of my head a long time ago. But I go back and make them all uppercase. Because if I’m doing all as an offering unto God – that means I am active in pursuing excellence, not just scrapping by on mediocrity.(Mediocrity will always be easy and excellence will always be demanding so don’t wait for the day it suddenly becomes effortless. Pigs will fly before then.)
So when today seems pointless, I would challenge you to see it as God’s training:
Training for the kingdom work He has in store for you.
Training in His ways, in His methods, in His wisdom.
Training up the integrity of your character.
Training up the diligence of your work ethic.
Training up your spirit to be joyful when you simply ain’t feeling it. Remember – faith follows fact not feeling!
And most importantly – the training up of your faith: believing in Him and submitting to His purpose when you don’t understand, when you don’t want, or when you could care less.
I’ve noticed that we’re quick to dismiss the things we don’t understand. Dismissing the wisdom and sovereignty of God is pride. However, submitting and trusting Him is the very expression of humility. And to the humble, God gives grace.The proud He opposes. Remember James 4:6?
So submit and obey. He will open your eyes where you don’t get it, change your heart when you’re just not feeling it, and give you new desires for the things of God.
Rejoice in the working of His will in your life instead of breaking yourself over your own agenda.
Praise Him for His provision and stop complaining about what He has taken away or not given you.
Be satisfied in Him. A grateful heart is a happy heart!
He is good. He is trustworthy. And He loves you.
Is not the Lamb once slain worthy to receive the reward of His suffering?